Phantasm

A Story of Two Mothers And Two Last Breaths
One Breath Empty Forever One Breath
Eternally Now Still Breathing…

My Wife Never Felt Her Mother’s
Love As Her Mother Took Her Last
Breath Indeed the Last Chance to Feel That Love

As i lay Next to my Wife That Night i Felt The Emptiness
Of That Breath She Never Breathed And Understood More Deeply

Then Why She Does not Find The Trust
And Comfort in This World That Comes

So Very Easy to Me As A Place Colored

With Love Eventually No Matter

What Black Abyss May

Come Next

For i came

to Feel and

Sense the Color

of my Mother’s Love

The Color of Sunshine

Always Returning no matter

How Dark A Night Empty Went Away

True i come From a Place of Light Seeing
Dark Returning to Breathing Love Once Again…

As Of Course Many of Us Do During This Breathing Life

Indeed the Silence After my Wife’s Mother’s Last Breath

Was only Silence A Black Hole Never Ending for my Wife

And Indeed As Empath Laying Next to

Her i felt i might not escape Back to

Love i Breathe Now So Free

The Silence After

My Mother’s

Breath

Was As Loud

As a Big Bang

For You See Her

Love Still Breathes in me

Therefore Thereby These Words

That continue in the Tradition of Her

Soul Still Breathing in me Yet it’s True

My Mother’s Love was Limited to my Sister

Mostly and i Whereas You Haven’t Spoken

The Name of Your Religion but Judging from

This Poem And Of Course Your Arabic Name

Not Really Knowing What You Look Like or

Your Age as i’m Pretty Sure the About

Picture is a Place Holder

For An Avatar or

Human Face there

Anyway i have Muslim Friends

Who Never Go Away And Stay

Through Thick And Thin And to

me Love is all that Counts Here and

Now Yet You See Yet You Breathe

Yet We Still See and Breathe

the Love of Others Who

Breathe in Us

Smiles

i have

Faced This Last

Breath Not Only In Others

but myself as Well Thrice And I will

Tell You This It is the Love For Others

The Giving That BreatheS on i got a Second

And Third

Chance

Not

All Do

i understand

the Value Of Love

That’s All i need to Do

Eternally Now i am Blessed

With the Faith of Love And Truly

Believe God is Love So Indeed

This

Now

This

Breath

Is Gift Enough

to Accept Death

It’s Well Beyond my

Pay Grade to Appreciate

Anything but this Gift of Love now

i Defer to the Nature of God And

Submit

That

i am Less

Than A Grain

Of Sand Yet Most

A Human Being Will

Ever Be This Breath of

Love Eternally Now…

to Give

And Share

Free No Doubt That

Love BreatheS on…

What Really

Takes

Faith

And Belief

Is to understand

That The Love We Give

Now Is Enough This Gift

Not Only That Yet to

Experience

Enough

Pain

And Misery

in Life to See Death

As The Blessing It is And Life

The Heaven We Make it now or not With Love

My Mother Thought the Only People Going to

Heaven LATER were Folks Who Worshipped

One man or one

Label

of name

Smiles it’s Sad that

She Didn’t Give Her Love to the World

At Best We Love More Than Our Parents Do

No Matter How

Much they Love Us

When God is Love

There are no Ifs ands Or

Buts THere is No True Love That

Requires Worship or Fears Criticism

Or Is Afraid of DarK or Cynical of LiGHT

Why?

Love Breathes….

Yet of Course Now

This iS oNly My Breath FRiEnD

And One Part i came to Understand

Coming Home Laying In Bed that Long

Eternal Night Watching my Mother’s Last

Breath is How Important It is to Breathe

Love in Stories Indeed Like the

One of Jesus For It’s

True a Story

is as

Close

As Some

Folks Come to Breathe

Love Therefore i respect all

Religions as i understand for

Some the Book They Read is as

Close as they get to Love Ever now…

Indeed there

Are many

Blessings

Of Life

Learning to

Understand

The Hows and

Whys Goes Along Way to Reach Love For All

Shall We Have An All Forgiving Loving God Eternally Now

Indeed

if

We Will

Love Eternally now

This God Truly Breathes in and As Us

i am surely No Materialist i Personally

See Miracles in my Life That Defy All

Reasons in Fact God Shows God’s

Face to me as i Believe

God Does in

Everyone’s

Life Differently

in Eyes of God now

That Live in Each Human

Being Yet Beyond all Names

My Friend Beyond All Reasons

Beyond All Words Yes Beyond all Is Love This God i Breathe…

“Time” My Mother’s Favorite Song By Alan Parson’s She Wanted

to Go Naturally She Suffered in Silence With Cancer For Several

Years Refusing to See a Doctor Only Occasionally Taking an

Aspirin for Her Pain that She only Related Was

Arthritis Then After Beating my Sister

In A Game of Scrabble in

February of 2017

She Fell to Her

Death Bed on Valentine’s

Day The Doctor Said Without

Food or Drink As the Most Merciful

Way Modern Medicine Offers to Starve

Someone to Death the only way They Could

Explain How she lasted 8 Days Rather than

The Usual 3 is the Strength of Her Heart then

Indeed the

Strength

That Came

From Loving

Only Her Two Children

Just Imagine How Strong

Her Heart Would Have Been if

She Loved All of Existence As God is Love

Smiles my FRiEnD at this Point if you need to imagine…

Anyway We played ‘Time’ For Her As We Sat Beside Her

For 8 Days Although She Was Not Conscious We

Felt

it

Gave Her

Comfort

i only Believe

in Love It’s all that makes Life worth breathing….

my Mother’s Cancer Was Bleeding in Her Brain

All in Her Bones in Every Part of Her

Body Yet

it did not

Stop Her

From Breathing

Until the Last

Breath and Never Now

Will Through my Breath my FRiEnD..

Shall i Give it to Others Yes inDeed i Will

Forevermore than Time… Now

SMiLes

iN A ReTurn

Of A FRiEnDly ‘Card’

too THiS TiMe Now..:)

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