The Last Goodbye

Some regrets are unfathomable and resides with you for your entire lifetime. I also have one deepest remorse that stays with me and forever will, since my childhood. It was around this time two decades back, when my father left us. He was in good health, just little issues for which he was leaving along with my mother. We (my sister and I) were asked to stay back. And that stubborn little child which I used to be, I chose not to look at him in angst, when he was bidding adieu, never ever to return.

I was standing there indignant on an uphill

Wearing a white dress, gazing standstill

He called my name as he walked

But poignant me stood there balked 

Little did I know what I was going to taste in the very near future

 Adamant I stood in my own thoughts and conjectures

I saw him going and reaching till the car

How would I be knowing he will go that far

He wasn’t taking me along was my mere complain

But, may be, leaving us to stay with our known was the real mundane

For once I thought to yell hard and say stop! Daddy, don’t go

But the obstinate me decided to only let the anger flow

Smiling mischievously he waved his hand and said bye, we are leaving

And I turned my back disbelieving

I wanted to turn and look at you for once

But I don’t know why, I was in a trance

The last goodbye you bid

Shattering us into pieces, oh where you did hid

If I would know you would fade away

In a week, on the coming Saturday

I would have hugged you and never let you go off

But this is what, is life’s payoff

It leaves you with unanswered questions

To unfold in layers by your true and worthy actions

I will regret this my whole life and sigh

What if once, only for once I would have turned and bid you my last good bye

But the time and moments gone you can never rectify and repeat

However, it leaves a void incomplete.